Clearing things up !!

Let me just say one thing here ...and this gotta settle all the confusion that I think is in the air.

I'm so used to fucking things up that everything that I do, from the initial step towards fucking up, then the covering up phase which too fucks up things to a greater extent and then to the redemption step for that which again qualifies as just more of fucking up. That is a really fucked up sentence and since I really don't have the head or the time to go through it again and sort out the grammatical glitches, let me get to the point.

But I still gotta say this. I might be making things extremely disturbing for you, but that is not what I intend to do. And it's not because I'm just trying to do things the way I want and making up lame excuses for what I do. I seriously mean that I don't want to cause any trouble.

We've known each other for the last two and half years now and through all this time I've liked you and never been able to tell you that. And now you wouldn't believe that I actually had someone asking me

"da are all those posts about me?"

Yeah very funny indeed. I guess not giving a name can cause serious trouble. :-o

And I had half an hour of gracious explanation to do, first, how it is not her and someone else. and secondly, why I didn't love her !! :-o Gosh! I never knew I could seriously have a girl asking me "Why couldn't you love me?" . Oh don't misinterpret. She didn't have any ideas of adopting me and giving me a label and going around with me if it had been her. Just that she was too offended at the idea that I didn't find anything very likable about her. :-o

And I've this problem which I accept I do. I tend to get pretty deep in relations, so in the end whichever girl I take up for scrutiny, I know as much about her as I do about any other girl. And from their stand, I know quite a lot about them and am a good friend of their's. So obviously, anyone could have felt every post that I wrote was about her. My apologies. And I hope I won't have another female friend of mine asking me,

"Wasn't that about me, you sweet rascal?"

PS: wokay, not so sure about the "Sweet" part.

Seriously if one of you actually thinks that I could be stupid enough to write about someone who diligently reads my posts; hear me; go for a brain transplant.