Vlad n Kilmer come to the party

I'm in the midst of all these people and still I feel the loneliest ever. Nothing seems to touch me and I so want something, anything to touch me and go. Everything flies in to me and just when I close my eyes and submit myself to it, it glides past me and I'm left a virgin. And 'coz I've been pretty lonely tonight and needed someone to talk to, I made two new friends.

Vlad: I don't mind not talking to her. But when I think I've a chance of meeting her I take it, and I wait patiently for her to come to see her just to know that shes around. I see her and I talk to her. I expect her to say "bye" any moment and I don't have a problem with her going. After a while talking to her I feel deserted, thrown away, neglected, unwanted, insignificant, helpless, unnecessary, useless, meaningless and damned. Then she says "bye" and I'm left cold and numb, what I really feel and what I think I ought to be feeling, overlapping. I've left her behind not to make a claim ever but it still feels weird to talk to her. She is just so detached, suddenly.

Kilmer: It's such a failed cause. Its not failed really but she doesn't like you for what you are. And it's dumb trying to make people feel anything. You can't make them FEEL. And now at least you've realized these things. It's kind of sad but true, she doesn't need you. She obviously hasn't cared to know much about you and you've realized that it's gone on this long only 'coz you've been finding ways to talk.

Vlad: I know. And it doesn't make me mad. That's funny. But yeah, I'm disappointed. That's alright. I never expected to walk away with her by my side. I'm a ruin myself. I can't do anything more than just hope for it. I've no idea how this is going to end up. But it feels just that way. I can't go back and erase all the things I've done and become a nice guy again. I'd lost it even before I got to it.

Kilmer: Take a smoke bub. Float.

Me: "For a change it was nice hearing out a guy with love problems. yeah right..!! "

Vlad: He has no idea, has he? I've got a birth mark below my lower lip.

Kilmer: He's out. Gone. I'm stout and we both are balding. Help him up.

I rise and I walk, I hear Floyd playing

"I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the waiting had begun
And I headed straight..into the shining sun"