Suddenly, I feel good.
Suddenly, I just feel good. Damn. :-)
These days all I can see around is success and failure. Like a heat diagram. Everything seems to be made up of success and failure in varying degrees. I believe, to this point in my life, I've done nothing extraordinary. Nothing that, if by someone else, would have made me feel, "Shit. The guy is bloody good."
I don't see why. And I don't think anything will change until I reason that out.
My life has been cleansed off some wrong notions. People who I used to think were not that great, suddenly have become entities of unattainable stature. I see success in them. And I'm too egoistic to start believing that I'm seeing more failure than success in me. I'm not sure if my yardstick is good. But well, that is the one I use.
I've lived so long with my current "set" of beliefs that any change would require an insanely humongous change in my mental configuration. I don't think I'll be ready soon, 'coz
1) I don't think someone so egoistic as me, can reconcile with the apparent fact that a change is in order.
2) The way I think, I act and live is so dependent on the way I've conditioned my mind. The slightest change in my mental make-up might destroy me.
:-)
I can't see the rainbow. But I know its out there, hidden, shrouded beneath the clouds. This is the moment when I say my line.
I shall seek out thee. :-)
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'The way I think, I act and live is so dependent on the way I've conditioned my mind. The slightest change in my mental make-up might destroy me.'
u really thnk so?
den , race on dude, make dat change, coz de fear of death/destruction givs a grt high.
de more dangerous , de more fun.
go figure thngs out .
livin on de edge is fun!
It is odd that you had to think...
"den , race on dude, make dat change, coz de fear of death/destruction givs a grt high.
de more dangerous , de more fun.
go figure thngs out .
livin on de edge is fun!"
...is something I didn't already know.
I guess U didn't quite understand.:-)
Changing doesn't involve anything fantastic. It's not about living on the edge, its about changing what you know you are. And death or destruction won't necessarily seem "fun" to me once I change myself. After all it does come down to "being you"; and that goes out of the question once you change what you are.
nice metaphors...but i don't feel the need for change. call it absolute egoism, that's what i do
whats the brand mate???
uhum? er? ahha? actually what?
i remember reading somwhr , dat you are not one , but 3 , de 1 u thnk u r ; de 1 oters thnk u r ; de 1 u really r.
u cant shldnt change wot u really r.
but den v hv put on lots of masks to serve varios purposes , mayb 4 ur parents, frnds or anybdy else .
the idea dat v hav of ourselves neednt b true, it cld b act of running away from thngs , but den v cld do it n such a way , dat v end up fooling urselves. only for de matter of convinience , u decide dat u r only so & so.
well...i donno if u understood nythng.
m jus speaking from my own experience.
our minds can play terrific games upon us somtimes
i kinda do actually :-)
but its nothing close to being terrific, that I can tell you. more on the lines of the "terrible".
yeah..terrible cld b a more apt word. but the sheer ingenuity of it all makes me marvel at this thng called the mind
"The way I think, I act and live is so dependent on the way I've conditioned my mind. The slightest change in my mental make-up might destroy me. "
c'mon man !! change urself...there is nothing wrong with changing urself..change is needed..change is the only thing that does not change..take the risk buddy..u will love it...and u wont get destroyed..am sure ..
hey..y rnt u blogging anymore? churn sumthing out naa...
:)
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