I feel so damnably lost. Beyond compare.
I feel lost amongst all the zillion billion people around me; losing my identity drowning all the way. I desperately try to keep my head over water but I'm being pulled down. I shouldn't have been so fucking helpless. I feel lost. I think I'm failing again. And I don't think I'm ever going to be taken seriously. Not even for a 20 year old. Some evil thing is holding on to me. I can't write. I can't think. I can't start to believe.
I feel like being squeezed through a juicer. A sugarcane mill. Every time I get rolled and I come through, I think its over. And then, I get pulled back in the other way. And I'm not allowed to faint either. I see the rolls crushing my feet and then my knees. I see it getting closer and closer; I hear my penis squealing beneath the iron. I sense my lungs going out with a puff, and then half way through another groan, it takes in my jaws; then my nose and finally my brain, much of it getting strewn around; some on the wall, some on the floor beneath.
and then, its cntrl+c and cntrl+v ....
Am I so fucked as I imagine; Or is it just my fucked mind? Either way, its fucked up.
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3 steps to heaven:
u thnk u hv lost ur identity? wot ws dat n de 1st place...if it ws ur marks , oters opinion abt u or de lik , ders more 2 you dan all dat, so losin dem doesn mean losin urslf ....
hugz!
I hate having to explain myself, but what you said doesn't bother me. n in fact, those haven't even crossed my mind yet. I don't thrive on others' opinions :-)
I'm not looking for acceptance. that doesn't mean much to me. So, it follows that others don't even figure in the equation.
You can't write...??
I don't think you copy-posted this graphical..sugar mill procedure, now did you..??
See..?your imagination is working just fine...!! ;)
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